The day of reckoning is at hand .

At this very moment , I am sitting on my bed , leaning against the wall and typing my latest musing on the Laptop , coz my PC is totally screwed up . This will be my last musing before my future is revealed to me in the morn . Got info from a very very reliable source that the IIMB results will DEFINATELY be out tomorrow . And before they do , I want to spill out all my feelings and pent up frustrations .

I worked my ass off for CAT . Getting into an IIM is not something I planned this year or last or the year before . Heck , Ive been wanting to go too an IIM(ABC off course) ever since I was in 8th std . How exactly I became interested in management is something I dont exactly remember . But one thing I am very sure of , I have never wanted any thing in my life as badly as I want this , to get into one of ABC .

These past few days I have been surrounded by conflicting emotions . Sometimes I am pretty optimistic . I tell myself " Chill out Nikhil , look at all that you have going in your favour , you have 99.78 in CAT , which IMHO is an excellent score , you have 87% acads in your Engineering program , you are 2nd in your class of 66 , you have a long list of certificates in extra currics , you have held numerous posts of responsibility in both school and college , you had a good GD and a very good PI ------ just chill out and take it cool ".

And then sometimes I become very dull and morose . I tell myself - " Yeah I have all those credentials , but that didnt get me AC calls did it ? I had 99.78 in CAT with a V/Qt/DI split of 95 , 99.5 , 99.8 and I still didnt get AC calls . One chap with 84 in Verbal ( fresher too ) got an A call . SO dont tell me that my 95 in verbal disqualified me from A and C . And what's with C ??? They are supposed to be QT/DI strong , and Ive got very high scores in those 2 sections . So if you didnt get AC with that score , you need not necessarily convert B even with so many things going in your favour " was what I used to tell myself .

But most of the time I tried to get the whole IIM thing off my mind and went out with my friends , who were a very good distraction from this whole affair . But all that is past . Tomorrow IIMB will declare their results , and I will know whether I have suceeded or failed in my endevour .

The day of reckoning is at hand . Lord only knows what the future has in store for me .

da STIFFmaester